Intermission......

WE BROKE UP!.......Yes, we broke up. I was reaching my boiling point with him because we didn't spend New Year's together, and that really pissed me off. He had to go babysit on New Year's, but he left. He went out with his friends and had a good time, while I was where?? AT HOME IN THE BED!!! I was too pissed, and he didn't even call me a midnight, he called me the next day at like 3.....Yes, I was very upset!! Anyways, I met one of his friends, his cousins best friend, his name is Jarvis. He is a real cool guy, but he's 22, and of course I'm with Asa, so nothing would happen with that. Anyways, me and Asa had been getting into it lately about spending time together, and one night he decided he didn't want to be around me and wanted to go out with his friends. So, I called his Jarvis to see what he was doing that night. He said he was gon' call me back later one....he did. He told me to come pick him up and take him to the barbershop. I looked good as hell, I made sure I put on a nice ass outfit and I really wanted to wear my "Beyonce boots," even though it was snow and ice outside. "A DIVA IS A FEMALE VERSION OF A HUSTLA.." Yes, I had on 5 inch heels in the ice, slipping and sliding, but I still looked good as hell.
So, we went to the barbershop....we was laughing and shit...having a good time. This was around the time the Biggie movie was out, and Jarvis wanted to go to the movies with some of his friends, but I was kind of hesitant. Anyways, we ended up going up to the HoJo to this little hotel gathering. Then, Asa's cousin called Jarvis and asked if I could come get him, and I went to go get him. So, we were up in the room chilling, sipping, but later on in the night, I decided to take my ass home. I went home, and the next day I woke up to a phone call from Asa's best friend, Ash. She called me and asked me what I did last night and I told her that I got drunk as hell, and I was kicking it with Damien. She told me that Asa had finally gotten the hint and planned on taking me to the movies that day. I called him to see if it was true and he told me he was. So, I talked to him off and on for the day....but, Asa told me to be ready by 6. So, I got dressed and shit and 6 roll around and no ASA!.....So, 7 rolls around....*door bell* I answer the door, and he just stood there with his mouth open, "Damn!" Yes, a bitch was bad. Anyways, he said, " The plans we had tonight were cancelled. Why don't you ask Jarvis to take you to the movies?" I ran outside, YET AGAIN IN 4 INCH HEELS ON AN ICEY DRIVEWAY!, chasing after him. I begged and pleaded for him to listen to me, and that it wasn't like that. But, Damien went and told Asa that I told him that I was feeling Jarvis. I tried to get him to listen to me, but he wasn't budging. He told me to move, so he could go home but I wouldn't move.....he put the car in reverse and the drivers door was hitting me and I was rolling down the driveway with his car...He didn't care. So, I just let him go. He was so hurt, but it hurt me more, because I was the one that hurt him. I stood in my driveway with ankle boots, skinny jeans and a sleeveless sweater in 15 degree weather, crying......watching him pull out of my driveway. I just ran in the house, and I called Damien and Jarvis and cursed them out to the point of NO RETURN! Then, I called Ashley, and she said that Asa pushed her ass into a fucking corner to tell him what I told her, and I wasn't mad because I couldn't blame her because that is her best friend. She said, Damien told Asa what I said and that we were all together.....I couldn't stop crying...I was just dialing numbers. I fnally called my best friend, RAY! And, she came and got me, and took me out to try to get my mind off of everything. I ended up spending the night at her house, and I couldn't function, breathe...I couldn't think about anything other than him. He didn't talk for weeks, but his best friend, Ash was by my side the whole time. I really appreciate her for that. She just told me he wanted his space. I eventually learned how to give that to him, and he came back around around V-Day. I had planned on having a wonderful V-Day, because my previous one was horrible. But, ummm...I had ruined that so he says. He was going to take me downtown to eat, and we were going to have a carriage ride downtown and then he was gon' get us a room with rose petals and candles and shit, and be all romantic and make love. DAMN! Anyways, he text me randomly one day, and we talked and he told me I needed to take him out to eat to make up for my "wrong doings." I did....against all his friends telling me not to. We went out to eat, and we just talked. I asked him if we were back together, and he said, "Yea..." (Remember that!) Anways, he took me to the movies after that. I thought everything was all good? NO! Because I think a couple of days later, I called him and asked him if he was hungry and I brought him some Culvers, and I had a previous conversation with his ex best friend, Chara and she didn't know we were back together, and I wanted to bring that to his attention. I asked him about it, and he said we weren't....that blew the shit out of me. Anyways, we got into this big discussion and he didn't know if he wanted to be back with me because he was hurt, everything he was telling me I already knew, because his Mom told me how he was feeling (yes, I got it like that. She called me the whole time we were broken up to check and see how I was.) I told him how I felt, and how I've been there for him and that I'm not going anywhere because I love him, which has really it me in the ass recently. Anyways, he said that's all I needed to hear and he said we were back together and that he loved me. I looked at him and just loved him soooo much.......I wish that was the last of our problems.